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If my mind can conceive it, and my heart can believe it – then I can achieve it.
   ―  Muhammad Ali
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2018 To Get Strength
Drip, Drip, Drip
2017 Bricolage Art
2016 Just A Shame
2015 Treasures Of The Mind
2014 Not Quite Exceeded Reach
2013 Who’s Side?
2012 Why I Joined The Army And Not The Navy…
2011 Is It Your Turn Yet?
Just Trippin’
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The start of Juice Fast II…  Day 1.
Morning weight:  319lbs.
I am now down “54/61”.  As in, 54lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 61lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started Juice Fast I): 380lbs.  Today’s weight is a 4lbs increase from yesterday’s 315lbs.  My prediction after my “cheat” yesterday (gain 3lbs) was almost correct.
Today would have been the end of day 42 (6 weeks!) of my juice fast except for my cheat yesterday afternoon / evening.  When I got up, I decided to try to make it a hiccup and just start over.  The immediate goal remains the same:  day by day veggie juice fast with the current short term goal of 310lbs and a medium term goal of 299lbs.  At the moment, the plan is to stop the juice fast at 310lbs and diet to (and beyond) 299lbs.  The real goal remains to change my relationship with food and to get healthier by both a better diet (eating plan – NOT continuous dieting) and to vary my activities to be more active.   To modify the old weight loss axiom:  I need to “eat better and move more“.  If there is a silver lining to this “hiccup” it is there is no more need to count each day from the middle of the day.  I started “today” when I woke up.
I know a man called Michael Finnigan,
He grew whiskers on his chin-igan.
He shaved them off but they grew back in again.
Poor old Michael Finnigan, begin again.
So Day 1…  I begin again.  Day by day and / or 9lbs to go…
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On This Day In:
2017 Good Blogs, Too
2016 My Prediction For #AmnestyDon
2015 Worth A Try
2014 I’m Feeling It
2013 May I Have A Little More, Please?
2012 Increasing Doubt
2011 You Can’t Touch This

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The end of day forty-one and the start of day forty-two…  Not quite.
Morning weight:  315lbs.
I am now down “58/65”.  As in, 58lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 65lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s weight is a 3lbs decrease from yesterday’s 318lbs.  Only four more pounds until I reach the weight I “adjusted” back up from (re-taken ground).
And then I crashed and burned.  (Again, with the “drama queen”?)  My wife had coconut curry last night and had some left-overs in the fridge when I got back from some morning chores.  It was staring me right in the face and I weakened and had two tea spoons.  My God, it tasted soooo good!  The onions, mushroom and small piece of chicken seemed to explode on my taste buds.
And worse was yet to come…  My daughter is running for an elected position (on a community college board) and we were hosting her first “meet and greet” house party for the campaign in our home.  I was good at the kick-off party a few weeks ago, but I lost it today.  Psychologically, there are lots of reasons – in my own home, with family, nibbles (cheese, crackers, salami, and cookies), but the bottom line is exactly what my drill instructor used to repeat to me in Basic Training:  “I will listen to your reasons, but I will not accept your excuses!”  I didn’t go crazy and stuff myself, but over the course of the three hours I had a few samples of each.
And the lesson is: expect weakness and carry a bottle of juice at all times or lay out a portion of veggie finger food (celery, carrots, broccoli, and cherry tomatoes) in case of a weakness of will power.
So now I will need to make a decision if this is going to be the end of the fast and I will transition into a diet tomorrow or if I will get back on the wagon and just consider this a hiccup.  I have enough veggie juice, ginger / mint tea, and watermelon juice to get me through the weekend.  I’m assuming with all the salt and sugar in the various nibbles that I’ll retain at least a couple of pounds of water (plus the weight of the actual solid food), which means I will probably regain the 3lbs I lost from yesterday.  Still it would be nice to reach my short-term goal of 310lbs if not a medium term goal of 299lbs.  The first was the goal I hoped for at the end of this fast and the 299lbs was the next goal I was hoping for from the first few weeks of dieting.
Alfred the Butler (speaking to Bruce Wayne):  “And why to we fall, Master Wayne?  …  So we can learn to get back up, again.
At the end of the day, the thing to remember is the fast (and a specific weight) is not the goal.  The goal is to continue trying to get to a healthier relationship with food so my weight comes down as my health improves.
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2017 Sharp-Edged Beauty
2016 Start, Keep, Finish
2015 Lifetime Friends
2014 Acknowledgement
2013 Longevity, Tenacity and Diversity
2012 What Reagan Really Cared About
2011 Seeming Sane (Or Not)

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The end of day thirty-nine and the start of day forty…
Morning weight:  320lbs.
I am now down “53/60”.  As in, 53lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 60lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s weight is a 2lbs decrease from yesterday’s 322lbs.
Once again the ferocious hunger monster was roaring today and I was sorely tempted to go out and stuff my face.  Doubt has started to creep back into my head and is whispering:  “Butter pop-corn, ribs, pizza, coconut cream pie…”  All I needed was a reason to leave the house.  Well, none came up, so I just stayed at home miserable and thinking about food.  While I was swimming, all I could think about was getting home and making veggie broth with my veggie juice roughage.  (I did and it was delicious!)
Seriously, as mentioned yesterday, the first three days of “fluid” fasting (as opposed to smoothies and blends) is the desire for solid food in your stomach.  I don’t mean “solid” like steak or pizza.  I mean other than that, as in non-chewed – which is what I had.  Two days ago I had a blend, so yesterday and today I’ve had to pay the price.  Hopefully, tomorrow won’t be soooo bad, or I’m afraid this stops at 40 days and it won’t be pretty.  Day to day…
As of this evening, my short term goal is tomorrow noon (end of 40 days).  My medium term goal is Friday noon (42 days- 6 weeks!).  And long term goal is however long it takes to get to 310lbs.  My best guess is five more days, if I can continue 2lbs a day losses for five more days (that would be Sunday or Monday noon).  Obviously, it would be longer if I hit a plateau or only drop a pound a day.
The looming question is: what’s next?  After the break fast period, that is…  What’s next?  For me, I think I’ll have to progressively transfer over to a “nutritarian” diet.  I know meat products are bad for me and I know I am addicted to them and I’m fairly certain that I will go “ape” if I completely stop eating them.   Some things just be that way…
So my first steps after the fast will be small and steady steps to continue losing weight by eating healthier and working out more.  My local pool will be closing whenever the weather turns in October, so I’ll have to either start working out at home or join the nearby Planet Fitness until the pool reopens in May of 2019.  And, once again, I’m getting ahead of myself…  LOL
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2017 A Letter To 45
Some Small Place
2016 REDs
2015 Cities
2014 Still
2013 Dare = Hope
2012 Check My Math
2011 Just Asking

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The end of day thirty-seven and the start of day thirty-eight…
Morning weight:  324lbs.
I am now down “49/56”.  As in, 49lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 56lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s weight is a 13lbs increase, up from 311lbs yesterday.  And, the explanation follows…
I mentioned last week that on the day of my colonoscopy my weight was 330lbs at the hospital where I got the procedure.  I also stated my weight was 309lbs at the doctor’s office earlier in the same week.  Well, it turns out when I jumped on my scale this morning it said I’d gained 5lbs (316lbs) since yesterday (311lbs).  Given that I didn’t go for my swim, had only in the low 22K for steps and drank some “low-sodium” broth and then a 32oz bottle of ice water before going to sleep, I expected it to be a plateau or slight gain.  I did not expect a 5lbs gain…
I decided to take advantage of the opportunity to move my scales for a “reset”.  Instead of having them on a sports mat, I have put the scales back on a concrete surface in a corner of the mats.  I made sure to keep the lip of the scale from the edges of the mats.  I then weighed myself in the various positions (toes off the edges, toes at “8” and “4”, toes at “0”).  I did the positions both individually (by stepping off the scale in between) and together (transitioning from one to the next without stepping off).  What I found was toes off the edges: 340lbs.  Toes at “8” and “4”: 335lbs.  Toes at “0”: 324lbs.  I am assuming I haven’t gained any weight since the colonoscopy, and will, therefore, use the 324lbs going forward.  I will also leave the scale off the mats for the duration and continue to use the “0” toes position for the duration.
This is a “terrible” psychological setback.  Even though I KNOW I haven’t gained 13lbs, it “hurts” just looking at the scale.  LOL  (Aren’t I turning into a back-of-hand on forehead drama queen?)  The practical effect of this is there is (in my head) far less incentive to go another week, let alone two weeks to try to reach 50 days.  At 311lbs, two weeks would almost certainly have been enough time to get below 300lbs.  It is almost impossible to get to 300lbs from 324lbs in that amount of time.  And this is the problem of setting goals beyond “one more day, just one more day”.
A Blend Day:  Hil bought a bunch of bananas and then wasn’t able to eat them all, so three started to go black.  She didn’t want to waste them so she tossed them in a blender with some pinto beans and made me a “protein” smoothie.  Bananas don’t juice well because they have a low fluid to fiber ratio, so “blending” is the best you can really do with them.  Bananas are not considered a “juicy-fruit”.  This is why they are not recommended for folks breaking a strict juice (or water) fast.  They sit like a weight in your stomach and don’t “pass-through” easily.  The taste and texture wasn’t much to speak of, so I added some apple and green “V8” juices to the mix.  It slightly improved the taste, but it definitely made it drinkable (instead of frozen yogurt-like spoon-able).
Wrapping this up:  I have to make my veggie juice and my ginger / mint tea.  I’m then off to the pool for my swim.  And it’s back to “day by day”.
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2017 Today Is Not Lost
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2016 Paying Attention
2015 An Awful Ordeal
2014 What Are You Doing?
2013 Lives > 1
2012 Strange To All The World
2011 Unnecessary Stagefright

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The end of day fourteen and the start of day fifteen…  Two weeks and counting!
Morning weight:  352lbs.
I went back to my records to see what’s what…  The week prior to starting my fast I weighed in at 380lbs (my personal high / worst).  I bounced up and down for several days between 378 and 380.  Then, two days before the start of the fast (at 380lbs), I started the fasting prep.  I’m not sure “exactly” what I was doing, but on the day the fast started I was actually 273lbs.  So, I’d actually already started losing weight (7lbs).  Since then, with the two weeks of fasting, I’ve dropped down 21lbs, to 352lbs.  I lost stomach content weight and some excess water weight the first few days, but after that it’s been “actual” weight.  I always estimate the starting loss at about 10lbs, so REALLY I’m only down 11lbs for the two weeks of fasting.
How’s it been?  So far, great!  I’m sometimes walking a fine line between veggie juice / fructose and energy crash, but so far I’ve not been seriously tempted by food (or hunger) to break the fast.  Yes, the first three days are always the hardest for me.  But, that is because I both enjoy the taste of food and the eating of it.  I enjoy the sensations of biting, chewing and swallowing.  Now, all I get is the swallowing.  And, it’s definitely not the same!
I seem to be going through phases of wanting to chew and then not.  First it was the smell of Hil (my wife) cooking her meals.  Then it was watching all the commercials on TV.  There is something about the phrases “All you can eat” and “limited time” which makes some commercial breaks seem interminable.  LOL
Really, though…  I’m doing remarkable well.  My heart rate and blood pressure have both dropped.  My hands and feet no longer bloat when I walk or sit too long.  My various fat areas: muffin top, bingo wings, saddle bags, cottage cheese thighs, etc. are all decreasing.  Stomach is flatter.  Clothes are more comfortable.  I’m sleeping better.  So, yes.  All in all, I’m doing well.
Now if I could just get rid of these kidney stones and groin pain, I’d be singin’ in the rain.  LOL  That’s the problem with age…  There’s always something!
Expectations:  I expect to plateau and start having some “0” or only 1lb loss days from here out.  Several days this last week I’ve dropped 2 or 3lbs and, from my experience, that is not a sustainable rate of loss (for me).  But I will be more than happy to go another six days (20 total) and drop 12 to 15lbs of actual weight.  I think that will put me in a perfect position to move over to a lifestyle diet and begin working out.  Then maybe I’ll be able to convert a quick drop in weight into a long term healthier future.
Being realistic, six more days sounds like a long time…  So, I’ll take it day by day and not beat myself up if I don’t make it to 20 days.  After all, my initial goal was 7 days and I’ve already doubled that!
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2017 Try It, You’ll Like It
2016 Echo Chamber?
2015 Embrace The World Like A Lover
2014 Democratic Beliefs (for the next President)
2013 And Go Now!
2012 A World Safe For Diversity
2011 What If I Don’t Want To?
2009 Restful Sunday and a Movie About Boy’s Dolls (Action Figures)

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Setting a goal is not the main thing.  It’s deciding how you will go about achieving it, and staying with that plan.
   —  Tom Landry
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On This Day In:
2017 Are You A Loser?
2016 Constitution And Conscience
2015 Separate, Fearful And Imprisoned
2014 Something Worth Making
2013 Absolutely
2012 Can Do
2011 Wise Criticism

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