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The end of day forty-one and the start of day forty-two…  Not quite.
Morning weight:  315lbs.
I am now down “58/65”.  As in, 58lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 65lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s weight is a 3lbs decrease from yesterday’s 318lbs.  Only four more pounds until I reach the weight I “adjusted” back up from (re-taken ground).
And then I crashed and burned.  (Again, with the “drama queen”?)  My wife had coconut curry last night and had some left-overs in the fridge when I got back from some morning chores.  It was staring me right in the face and I weakened and had two tea spoons.  My God, it tasted soooo good!  The onions, mushroom and small piece of chicken seemed to explode on my taste buds.
And worse was yet to come…  My daughter is running for an elected position (on a community college board) and we were hosting her first “meet and greet” house party for the campaign in our home.  I was good at the kick-off party a few weeks ago, but I lost it today.  Psychologically, there are lots of reasons – in my own home, with family, nibbles (cheese, crackers, salami, and cookies), but the bottom line is exactly what my drill instructor used to repeat to me in Basic Training:  “I will listen to your reasons, but I will not accept your excuses!”  I didn’t go crazy and stuff myself, but over the course of the three hours I had a few samples of each.
And the lesson is: expect weakness and carry a bottle of juice at all times or lay out a portion of veggie finger food (celery, carrots, broccoli, and cherry tomatoes) in case of a weakness of will power.
So now I will need to make a decision if this is going to be the end of the fast and I will transition into a diet tomorrow or if I will get back on the wagon and just consider this a hiccup.  I have enough veggie juice, ginger / mint tea, and watermelon juice to get me through the weekend.  I’m assuming with all the salt and sugar in the various nibbles that I’ll retain at least a couple of pounds of water (plus the weight of the actual solid food), which means I will probably regain the 3lbs I lost from yesterday.  Still it would be nice to reach my short-term goal of 310lbs if not a medium term goal of 299lbs.  The first was the goal I hoped for at the end of this fast and the 299lbs was the next goal I was hoping for from the first few weeks of dieting.
Alfred the Butler (speaking to Bruce Wayne):  “And why to we fall, Master Wayne?  …  So we can learn to get back up, again.
At the end of the day, the thing to remember is the fast (and a specific weight) is not the goal.  The goal is to continue trying to get to a healthier relationship with food so my weight comes down as my health improves.
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On This Day In:
2017 Sharp-Edged Beauty
2016 Start, Keep, Finish
2015 Lifetime Friends
2014 Acknowledgement
2013 Longevity, Tenacity and Diversity
2012 What Reagan Really Cared About
2011 Seeming Sane (Or Not)
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The end of day forty and the start of day forty-one…
Morning weight:  318lbs.
I am now down “55/62”.  As in, 55lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 62lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s weight is a 2lbs decrease from yesterday’s 320lbs.  Only seven more pounds until I reach the weight I “adjusted” back up from (re-taken ground).
This is the third day from my drinking the bananas / beans fruit juice blend and I am feeling a lot less crazy for “food” in my system.  The juicing fluid(s) seem to be quite enough today.  At least I’m not constantly dwelling on thoughts of stuffing my face ( – as opposed to merely eating a healthy portion of a healthy meal).

Image of Hands On Wrist 2018/09/05

Hands On Wrist 2018/09/05

About two weeks ago, I posted an image of my hands palm-in-palm behind my back.  Today I am able to reach beyond my palm and touch the wrist of my opposite hand (still behind my back).  When I began the veggie juice fast back on 27 July, I could only touch the finger-tips of my middle fingers on each hand.  Also, when I got the FitBit watch I am wearing in this photo, I could only wear it on my left wrist and only on the very last hole.  I can now wear it (uncomfortably) on the fourth hole and all day on the third hole.  The watch now fits on my right wrist and I can wear it all day on the second hole.
Progress!  Day by day…
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On This Day In:
2017 Heart Vision
2016 A Labor Day / Pre-Election Hope
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2015 Without Hope
Things Known And Unknown
2014 A Wall Too High, A Bridge Too Far
2013 Glory = Danger
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Feelin’ It
2012 How Did We Get Here?
2011 Labor Day Weekend Mishmash
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The end of day thirty-nine and the start of day forty…
Morning weight:  320lbs.
I am now down “53/60”.  As in, 53lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 60lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s weight is a 2lbs decrease from yesterday’s 322lbs.
Once again the ferocious hunger monster was roaring today and I was sorely tempted to go out and stuff my face.  Doubt has started to creep back into my head and is whispering:  “Butter pop-corn, ribs, pizza, coconut cream pie…”  All I needed was a reason to leave the house.  Well, none came up, so I just stayed at home miserable and thinking about food.  While I was swimming, all I could think about was getting home and making veggie broth with my veggie juice roughage.  (I did and it was delicious!)
Seriously, as mentioned yesterday, the first three days of “fluid” fasting (as opposed to smoothies and blends) is the desire for solid food in your stomach.  I don’t mean “solid” like steak or pizza.  I mean other than that, as in non-chewed – which is what I had.  Two days ago I had a blend, so yesterday and today I’ve had to pay the price.  Hopefully, tomorrow won’t be soooo bad, or I’m afraid this stops at 40 days and it won’t be pretty.  Day to day…
As of this evening, my short term goal is tomorrow noon (end of 40 days).  My medium term goal is Friday noon (42 days- 6 weeks!).  And long term goal is however long it takes to get to 310lbs.  My best guess is five more days, if I can continue 2lbs a day losses for five more days (that would be Sunday or Monday noon).  Obviously, it would be longer if I hit a plateau or only drop a pound a day.
The looming question is: what’s next?  After the break fast period, that is…  What’s next?  For me, I think I’ll have to progressively transfer over to a “nutritarian” diet.  I know meat products are bad for me and I know I am addicted to them and I’m fairly certain that I will go “ape” if I completely stop eating them.   Some things just be that way…
So my first steps after the fast will be small and steady steps to continue losing weight by eating healthier and working out more.  My local pool will be closing whenever the weather turns in October, so I’ll have to either start working out at home or join the nearby Planet Fitness until the pool reopens in May of 2019.  And, once again, I’m getting ahead of myself…  LOL
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2012 Check My Math
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The end of day thirty-eight and the start of day thirty-nine…
Morning weight:  322lbs.
I am now down “51/58”.  As in, 51lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 58lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s weight is a 2lbs decrease from yesterday’s 324lbs.
Today I have been going crazy thinking about food.  I forgot and am now being forced to relearn the difference between “juicing” and “blending”.  In juicing, there is almost no roughage to fill up your stomach.  In blending, there is.  In addition to the difference in your subsequent bowel movements, you also re-start the body’s craving for the solids you get when eating (and blending) and which the body doesn’t get when you are juicing strictly.  Blending is, in essence, just eating without chewing in terms your stomach understands.
So, of course, I am obsessing about the “wrong” kinds of food:  steak, ribs, pizza, fried chicken, fried calamari, and various types of pies and cakes.  What’s a future “nutritarian” to do?  Well, for the moment, I’m just trying to gut-check through the next two days to make it to the other side.  It typically takes 3 to 4 days to convince your stomach it’s only going to get veggie juice or roughage broth (broth made from the veggie juice roughage).  So, I am really struggling and not sure I can make through the 39th day, let alone get to the end of the week.
It doesn’t help that I feel like I’m living through General Patton’s statement (paraphrased):  “I never retreat.  I don’t like to pay for the same real estate twice.”  Which is exactly how I feel about re-losing weight I’ve “regained” because I’ve moved a scale from a foot away to where it currently sits.
My focus now is to hang on until I get to 310lbs.  This will be one pound less than the weight I adjusted from (311lbs) when moving the scale.  From 324lbs, if I get to 210lbs, it will mean that I’d dropped 14lbs and would have been below the 300lbs mark based on the original scale location and measure.  After that, I’ll be eating again and I’ll just have to work / diet through my continuing goal of losing weight and getting healthier.  So, that’s the GOAL:  310lbs!  And then I can start chewing again…
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2014 Just Business
2013 Beautiful Adventure
2012 Precedence
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The end of day thirty-seven and the start of day thirty-eight…
Morning weight:  324lbs.
I am now down “49/56”.  As in, 49lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 56lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s weight is a 13lbs increase, up from 311lbs yesterday.  And, the explanation follows…
I mentioned last week that on the day of my colonoscopy my weight was 330lbs at the hospital where I got the procedure.  I also stated my weight was 309lbs at the doctor’s office earlier in the same week.  Well, it turns out when I jumped on my scale this morning it said I’d gained 5lbs (316lbs) since yesterday (311lbs).  Given that I didn’t go for my swim, had only in the low 22K for steps and drank some “low-sodium” broth and then a 32oz bottle of ice water before going to sleep, I expected it to be a plateau or slight gain.  I did not expect a 5lbs gain…
I decided to take advantage of the opportunity to move my scales for a “reset”.  Instead of having them on a sports mat, I have put the scales back on a concrete surface in a corner of the mats.  I made sure to keep the lip of the scale from the edges of the mats.  I then weighed myself in the various positions (toes off the edges, toes at “8” and “4”, toes at “0”).  I did the positions both individually (by stepping off the scale in between) and together (transitioning from one to the next without stepping off).  What I found was toes off the edges: 340lbs.  Toes at “8” and “4”: 335lbs.  Toes at “0”: 324lbs.  I am assuming I haven’t gained any weight since the colonoscopy, and will, therefore, use the 324lbs going forward.  I will also leave the scale off the mats for the duration and continue to use the “0” toes position for the duration.
This is a “terrible” psychological setback.  Even though I KNOW I haven’t gained 13lbs, it “hurts” just looking at the scale.  LOL  (Aren’t I turning into a back-of-hand on forehead drama queen?)  The practical effect of this is there is (in my head) far less incentive to go another week, let alone two weeks to try to reach 50 days.  At 311lbs, two weeks would almost certainly have been enough time to get below 300lbs.  It is almost impossible to get to 300lbs from 324lbs in that amount of time.  And this is the problem of setting goals beyond “one more day, just one more day”.
A Blend Day:  Hil bought a bunch of bananas and then wasn’t able to eat them all, so three started to go black.  She didn’t want to waste them so she tossed them in a blender with some pinto beans and made me a “protein” smoothie.  Bananas don’t juice well because they have a low fluid to fiber ratio, so “blending” is the best you can really do with them.  Bananas are not considered a “juicy-fruit”.  This is why they are not recommended for folks breaking a strict juice (or water) fast.  They sit like a weight in your stomach and don’t “pass-through” easily.  The taste and texture wasn’t much to speak of, so I added some apple and green “V8” juices to the mix.  It slightly improved the taste, but it definitely made it drinkable (instead of frozen yogurt-like spoon-able).
Wrapping this up:  I have to make my veggie juice and my ginger / mint tea.  I’m then off to the pool for my swim.  And it’s back to “day by day”.
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2016 Paying Attention
2015 An Awful Ordeal
2014 What Are You Doing?
2013 Lives > 1
2012 Strange To All The World
2011 Unnecessary Stagefright

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The end of day thirty-six and the start of day thirty-seven…
Morning weight:  311lbs.
I am now down “62/69”.  As in, 62lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 69lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s loss is a 2lbs loss, down from 313lbs yesterday.

Image of Scale from 18_8_31 showing 313lbs

Scale: 313lbs (Yesterday)

The image (above) shows me standing on the scale as described in a previous post with my heels and big toes together at “0” on the scale.   This is how I measured the 380lbs when I began the juice fast.  It does have a different weight than with my toes at other positions, but I felt it allowed me to more accurately repeat the weigh-in process to get a consistent measurement.  This differs from the earlier photo which showed my big toes at the “8” and “4” positions (at the forward edge of the black pads) due to a change in the scale getting moved.  I started at “0” and now am back to placement at “0”.
I got a fairly good night’s sleep, but I have been very tired and sore most of the day (back, shoulders and chest).  I’m not sure why.  Maybe I pushed too hard yesterday – only one day after the colonoscopy.  I feel like I’ve been in a boxing match and got pounded on.  I passed two grains (kidney stones) this afternoon, so the soreness might also be from them.  Otherwise, I am back to having a daily “BM”, so that’s a good thing, too.
I had a discussion with my wife about breaking the fast.  She says if I want to go on, she will support me, but she doesn’t want me to go indefinitely.  She’d prefer if I would stop after one more week.  I said I would prefer to try for two more weeks as that would make an even fifty day fast.  She says she feels that would be pushing it too far and she is concerned about my health.  I said I have a doctor’s appointment at the end of this month and we can get a opinion from her (my primary care physician), then.  In the mean time, I’ll be seeing my urologist for my kidney stones and getting a blood workup for my cardiologist.  Hil asked me how I feel “in myself”.  I said except for today’s tiredness, I feel like I’m ten years younger.  I then admitted I am thinking about food a LOT more the last few days.  She replied she knows because I’m talking about food a lot more, too.  (Me thinks the final curtain draws near folks…)
So, Hil went to the market and bought me another batch of veggies to make more juice.  Tomorrow, I will be busy with that:  veggie juice prep and ginger / mint tea prep.  Day by day and see how I feel next Thursday / Friday…  This will be our first Labor Day without a BBQ in many years…  😦
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2015 From A Letter To A Friend
2014 Your Part (Here)
2013 Complements
2012 Sound And Light
2011 Two Politicians Visit A Farm…
2010 Labor Day And Honorable Men

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The end of day thirty-five and the start of day thirty-six…  Week 5 completed!!
Morning weight:  313lbs.
No weight change since yesterday.  I am still down “60/67”.  As in, 60lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 67lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s loss is the second time in one week (just five days) in which I’ve had a plateau.
As expected, the plateaus had to start happening more frequently…  The question is: what is the reason?  That’s hard to guess-ti-mate.  It could be because I had the colonoscopy yesterday and I celebrated with a banana / strawberry smoothie.  It could be the meds from the colonoscopy artificially reduced my weight by increasing my water loss for the two days.  It could be that I didn’t go for my swims the last two days – so fewer calories burned.  Or, it could just be it was time for a plateau.  There is really no way to tell.  All I can do is wait to see if the weight loss starts again or if the plateau holds for another day.  I can say my tummy is still not “right” and I didn’t have my daily “BM”.  So I won’t be surprised if my weight goes UP tomorrow morning.  I guess that too is to be expected.  LOL
Today, my wife went to the supermarket and bought me a medium size watermelon to break my fast with tomorrow after noon.  Alternatively, I can juice it and try for a few more days to see how it goes.  The week coming up looks pretty quiet, so I am torn about continuing or not.  At the moment, I’m leaning towards continuing day-by-day and see how it goes.  This is what makes plateaus hard.  If I was still dropping weight every day, the decision to continue would be easy (well, easier) —  I’d just keep going.  I guess I’ll just have to see how I feel in the morning.  Decisions, decisions…
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2015 At Five
2014 Touching The Past
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2013 Children Will Judge
2012 Liar, n.
2011 Freedom To Doubt

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