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It had long since come to my attention that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them.  They went out and happened to things.
  —  Elinor Smith
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On This Day In:
2017 The Great Leveler
Conservative Depressions
2016 Election + 1 Month
2015 Dance And Sing
2014 A Measuring Stick For Progress
2013 Courtly Love Or Victory Over Habit
2012 Have We Met?
2011 Efficiently Useless

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The end of day thirty-four and the start of day thirty-five…  End of week 5 in sight!
Morning weight:  313lbs.
I am now down “60/67”.  As in, 60lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 67lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s loss is a 2lbs loss, down from 315lbs yesterday.
Today I had my colonoscopy / endoscopy at the local hospital.  They took my vitals and my weight (on their scale) was: 330lbs.  I asked how accurate the scale was since it is different than my home scale and, at my visit to the urologist on Monday, his office scale put my weight at 309lbs.  The nurse said it is a professional-medical grade scale and is calibrated every quarter by the State hospital inspectors because it is used to calculate the anesthesia for procedures.  He said it should always be within 1 or 2lbs of totally accurate.  This weight is significantly different from my scale, but I don’t have access to their scale on a daily or weekly basis, so I will continue to use the weights from my own scale.  As an experiment, when I got home I tried to duplicate the weight by moving my feet and leaning forwards, backwards and to the sides.  I was not able to get within 5lbs of 330lbs, no matter what I did.  As I said, I’ll just have to stick with the girl I came to the dance with…
Results:  I don’t know.  The doctor said he found a single, small polyp in my colon, which he removed for biopsy.  He also said he found something in my throat / esophagus.  Unfortunately, I was still pretty doped up and didn’t catch what he was saying.  My wife said she didn’t either – except I’m to call next week for a follow-up appointment.  By then the results of the biopsies should be back.  So, time will tell…  My wife also said the doctor said I won’t need the procedures again for five(5) years.  Since I am currently on a three(3) year follow-up, that’s a good thing.
Prep Notes:  Just a quick recommendation to anyone who has to take the “Suprep Bowel Prep Kit” for your own future colonoscopy, it is foul tasting at room temperature with tap water.  The mixture says to keep it non-refrigerated and to mix it with cold water.  I had the first batch (there are two you have to take) at room temperature with “cold” tap water.  EEYYUCCKKK!  It makes you want to retch.  This morning, I mixed the second batch with ice water (sans ice), and it was tolerable.  The flavor is cherry cough syrup with a healthy bit of sea water mixed in.  Still yuck, but not as bad as when warm / room temperature.
A second thing I feel worth mentioning is the main / first ingredient is Sodium Sulfate which is considered a “neutral” salt.  Now, because I’ve been fasting, I’ve had very little salt in my diet over the last month.  (Yes, I know my “veggie-broth” contained salt and pepper.)  The “salt” is considered to be an electrolyte – similar to what you would find in Gatorade.  There is a caution in the attached medication guide that the kit can cause arrhythmia in those persons subject to them.  Well, I have AFib, which is a type of arrhythmia, and guess what?  Last night I woke up with severe palpitations which lasted from 12:30am until just before 4:00am.  They were bad enough I had to get out of bed and sit up to feel comfortable.  Which is why you should ALWAYS read the medication guides before you take the meds and ask your doctor about them.  In my case, didn’t and did.  I didn’t read and I did ask my doctor.  However, I didn’t ask him specifically about this Rx.  I did make sure he was aware of my AFib in advance.  Next time, in three or five years, I will be a little more aggressive about my questions.  A word to the wise…
Tomorrow at noon will be the end of week five(5).  With the news from the hospital scale, I’m now a bit disappointed.  I know I shouldn’t be, but facts are facts even when they are ugly.  If I am really 30lbs away from 300lbs, I won’t get there in a week or two.  If I choose to go with my home scale, I’m within a couple of weeks of breaking 300lbs and being able to think: “I lost 80lbs!”  This is where ego and vanity and a sense of accomplishment intersect and get twisted.  What started out as a seven(7) day juice fast to jump start a change in behavior is becoming (between my ears) something else.  The question I have for myself is:  “Okay…  Then when is enough, enough? 50 days?  100 days?  80lbs?  100lbs?”  Perhaps I’m just tired from last night’s lack of sleep, but I don’t have a good answer.  At the moment, it’s still Saturday at noon…
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2016 I Am
2015 Positively Aiming Higher
2014 Suspicious Minds
2013 We Are Not Alone
2012 Lawyer, n.
2011 Each Day Remember…
2010 Impossible Dreams of Camelot

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The end of day twenty-one and the start of day twenty-two…
Morning weight:  341lbs.
I am now down “32/39”.  As in, 32lbs down from my fasting start weight: 373lbs, and 39lbs down from my highest weight ever (two days before I started the fast): 380lbs.  Today’s loss is a 2lb loss, down from 343lbs yesterday.  It also represents a +10% body weight loss from my highest ever weight (the week of / before I started this fast).
I am a creature of habit.  It makes feel comfortable to have an idea of what to expect each day.  Today was disruptive.  After walking my dog in the morning, I drove up to spend a few hours visiting my brother.  He is on dialysis four times a week for kidney failure and he also suffers from vertigo, so he isn’t able to get out and about much on his own.  I try to visit him at least every 4 to 6 weeks for a bit of in-the-flesh company.  This visit made the fast difficult because in order to stave off hunger I have to be able to drink regularly.  In order to drink regularly, I have to have ready access to a toilet.  My brother lives about a 45 minute drive away.  This means I can’t really drink until after I get there and I have to stop well before I’m leaving so I can make sure I’m “empty” before getting on the road to come back home.
I made it both ways without bladder issues (i.e. failure), but I wasn’t able to drink my normal amount of fluids.  This put me right on the edge of energy failure.  As I said, I got through it, but it left me physically exhausted.  Not physically tired or sleepy; just sit on the couch and melt into the cushions exhausted…  And then I had to suck it up, have a drink to get my energy back up and go for my “swim”.  I try to go for a swim each day.  I don’t actually “swim” that much.  I tread water for an hour and then I try to do 5 or 6 laps with a kick board and / or breast stroke.  Except for toe touches, that’s the sum of my daily exercise.
Reactions:  Complete surprise!  I am now three weeks into a (planned) 7-day fast and I feel terrific.  What was meant to be a jump-start into a food / eating lifestyle change has evolved into a mini-achievement all its own.  I must admit this is both a surprise and unexpected.  A surprise because I feel so good after this amount of time.  Unexpected because I’ve lost so much weight.  As stated in previous posts, I have completed four 30-day fasts in my life and many shorter (10 days, 1 week, and 3 days) fasts, but I have never been this successful in losing weight.  As near as I can recall, on each of my 30-day fasts, I averaged about a pound a day and was never more than 30lbs in three weeks.  (In fact, 30lbs was usually my end of fast result.)  I also had much more frequent plateaus where I might not lose a pound a day and then “suddenly” drop 1 or 2 pounds.  This time around, 2 pounds a day seems to be an average loss.  Now, in fairness, my maximum weight (380lbs) was FAR more than any prior starting weight (by 50 to 100lbs), so I had a LOT more weight available to lose going into this fast.  Bottom line:  I’m expecting the law of diminishing returns to kick in any day and I’ll start having more 1 pound-a-day losses and more multi-day plateaus where I don’t lose anything.  But even expecting that change, I feel terrific in myself – clean and getting healthier.
New Goals:  Because I’ve FAR exceeded my initial objective, if I break fast tomorrow, I won’t be disappointed and beat myself up.  I would like to make it to Tuesday noon (which would be 25 days).  Beyond that, Friday noon would be four weeks and the following Monday (27 August 2018) would be one full month.  But that is 10 days away and seems like a far horizon…  Practically speaking, my “weight” goal is to shoot for six more pounds.  This would put me down 38lbs from my starting-the-fast weight (373lbs) and would be a 10% loss from there.  But that is “probably” 4 to 10 days away, and it too seems like a distant horizon…  (Do you see how easy it is for ego to start to slip into these situations?)  Day by day, day by day…  🙂
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On This Day In:
2017 Courage
2016 Don’t H8! — I’m With Her!!
2015 $20 Anyone?
2014 And Yet I Still Study
2013 Use Your Own
2012 Strengthen Freedom
2011 Attrition = A Lack Of Imagination
2010 Mind The Fire, Love
Just Beyond My Reach…
Even A Life Of Quiet Desperation!
Acts Of Courage

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A man who cannot tolerate small ills can never accomplish great things.
   —  Chinese Proverb
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On This Day In:
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2015 Absorbed And Civilized
2014 Relax And Lead
2013 Location, Location, Location
2012 Are You Really Good?
2011 Relatively Objective, Anyway

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Hil & me on our wedding day at City Hall in San Francisco, CA (3 Dec 1984)

Hil & me on our wedding day at City Hall in San Francisco, CA (3 Dec 1984)

Chains do not hold a marriage together. It is threads, hundreds of tiny threads, which sew people together through the years.
  —  Simone Signoret
[Happy 32th Anniversary, Hil
You are the roots for the life-tree we have lived and, this year, just another ring in our life-tree…
Love Always,
Your Kev
XXX
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— KMAB]
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On This Day In:
2015 Happy Anniversary Hil!!
2014 30th Wedding Anniversary
2013 Number 29 (And Counting)
2012 Hammer ‘N Roses
Happy Anniversary
2011 I Can Hear It Now

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What could we accomplish if we knew we could not fail?
    —  Eleanor Roosevelt
[Happy 31th Anniversary, Hil
Your love has been my strength in everything I have done and it has made all the difference in everything we have done together…
Love Always,
Your Kev
XXX
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   —   KMAB]
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On This Day In:
2014 30th Wedding Anniversary
2013 Number 29 (And Counting)
2012 Hammer ‘N Roses
Happy Anniversary
2011 I Can Hear It Now

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